If you really knew me

If you really knew me you'd know I swear more than I should,

If you really know me you'd know I get lost in the details of things, 

If you really knew me you'd know I hate the word chill, 

If you really knew me you'd know that I love almost nothing more in this life than the Jazz,

If you really knew me you'd know that sarcasm is the only way I can handle people

If you really knew me you'd know that I hate people before I get to know them and it's my least a favorite quality about myself,

If you really knew me you'd that I'm always looking to be better,

If you really knew me you'd know that the word "satisfied" doesn't mean anything to me,

If you really knew me you'd know that I'm probably the youngest in our grade,

If you really knew me you'd know that I let the little things bother me,

If you really knew me you'd know that I am the king of over analyzing every aspect of life,

If you really knew me you'd know I really appreciate Nelson's class even though I don't show it,

If you really knew me you'd know that I struggle to become inspired and stay inspired when I am,

If you really knew me you'd know I didn't put in as much effort as I would have liked too into this blog,

If you really knew me you'd know that I secretly wonder what is going on in everyone's lives and come up with scenarios based on their appearance,

If you really knew me you'd know I can handle rejection but not disrespect, 

If you really knew me you'd know that other people's opinions of me don't bother me

If you really knew me you'd know that deep down I am a pleased with who I am and excited for who I will become.  

I am Sam Shillingford

I Remember 
I remember when we used to fight
I remember when we used to hate each other
I remember when you pushed my head threw a fence over pick up basketball
I remember when we would wait on the curb to get picked up
I remember when when we would wake up early to play video games, but you never let me play
I remember when you told me how I was nothing, and would never be anything
I remember the time when you tried to knocked me out for wrestling in your room with my friends
I remember when you let me borrow your car so I could sneak out without getting caught
I remember when you first got your car and we debated never going home
I remember when you decided what was best for you
I remember staying up late alone wondering how I could do it with out you
I remember dreading the day thats coming
I remember when we sat at dinner in disbelief that it would be our last night together for 4 years
I remember waking up the next morning in shock
I remember that quiet car ride filled with meaningless conversation to avoid what was really going on
I remember when we hugged and you whispered to me "you be good" and I did everything to hold back tears
I remember when you didn't look back
I remember breaking down
I remember you,
I just hope you remember me.

Heart

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